Also, my mom managed to send me a lovely care package with some candy and pound cake. But...it arrived today, so I can't eat any of that until tomorrow. I think God is telling me something about self-denial. As a matter of fact, I have been "wailing in self-pity" recently. There are things I want but know I shouldn't want, and can't have, and rather than just complaining, I need to focus on my own life, and most importantly my studies and prayer life.
So, for this Lent there are a couple things I'd like to do, that I want to put down here, mostly for myself than anything:
- I'm giving up the cookies at the dining hall. They're absolutely delicious, and always out, so this will require some effort.
- I'm also preparing for making the Total Consecration to Mary on the feast of the Annunciation, so I'll be doing reading and prayers for that through Lent.
- When I'm doing homework, I'm going to listen to Christian music instead of secular music. I don't think it's possible for me to give up all music, so I'll replace with Christian music when I'm studying/doing homework--like now in fact I'm listening to Jason Gray on Spotify.
- Finally, I want to add in some reading of The Imitation of Christ. I've wanted to read this for a long time (along with Introduction to the Devout Life) and so why not try to read 1 chapter a day for Lent?
Are you giving anything up for Lent? I always say I "want to make the most out of this Lent," and I also feel like I always fall short of my promises to myself. However, I think that's a sign of our human-ness, and we can learn humility from always picking ourselves up to try again, just as Jesus did on His way to Calvary.
God bless you all my friends during this Lent.